What happened? What went wrong?

7 Mos. April 29, 2017 North Wildwood, NJ

As soon as you hear the words possible Autism, you instantly begin thinking and searching for answers. “How did we get here?” “What is happening?” or “How did this happen?” You will think about every food you ate, or which ones you avoided, you will begin to go through old pictures and videos, trying to see where things changed. I know, because that’s exactly what I did. It was intense to go back and see all the things Greyson was doing before and just after his 1st Birthday. He was babbling so much and so early at 6 months, that we thought he would talk early. He would say Mama and Baba consistently all the time. We still to this day have not heard Baba again. I knew in the beginning that this would be the hardest thing I would ever go through aside from my father’s death. My challenges no longer existed or even mattered, I needed to be everything I could for Greyson. I needed to be his biggest advocate. My life completely changed forever. During that time I didn’t know how I would navigate the world of Autism, but I knew this was going to be a part of something more than I ever knew. This was deeper on a whole new level. God gave this child to me, because he knew I had what it took, and in turn I would always make sure I followed through and realized this was going to be a positive experience. I don’t think I would be the mother I am today if it wasn’t for Greyson having Autism. He saved me and I will forever save him.

My Father’s Memorial Brick North Wildwood, NJ Hereford Inlet Lighthouse.
My Father’s Memorial Brick North Wildwood, NJ Hereford Inlet Lighthouse.

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